Fred and I usually say "Hhhiiikkk" whenever conversations between us seem to turn more "serious". Like, "getting married" or "settling down" serious. I mean, we're basically hungry for each other doing some PDA's and all. Its no ordinary between us... but words were extremely powerful for us. I mean, we're very... how can I say this... particular on the words we say to each other, especially on topics gauging on Marriage.
Marriage, specifically pertaining to "Us". I guess, six years really wasn't enough time for us to be comfortable on this issue. Especially me. I still have some reservations about getting engaged and married. I love the thought of it but... i just can't seem to blurt out topics and get emotional and all about setting down with Him.
Please dont get me wrong. I would kill for this. But... really... I am still afraid. Afraid of believing and hoping.
Today, Fred hint something about this again.I dont know. Sometimes, he teases me.. challenging me to respond. Pragmatically? I dont know. I feel, he's just testing me... studying my words. Like how you catch a fish in his mouth.See this, he's speaking all the way from Ireland:
Me: ..Yun lang ang nakakamiss from here... kahit ang pangit dito sa Pinas... up to date and affordable din naman ang leisure... pero Honey, lagi nga ako sipon at ubo dito... hindi na talaga maayos ang environment dito...
Fred: Honey…take care of your self… nag lemon juice and peppermint k?... My amigo says Switzerland is so expensive… wala nman mawawala kung magtry… Pano masters natin? Kelan mag take?
Me: Abangan natin to honey, I have a friend who actually passsed AUSAID from Australia. I'll go for it. ako, once matapos ako sa house.... love life at mba ko naman iintindihin ko. hiiiikkk bbbrrruii
Fred: Hiiiik… kelan k matapos s haus?
Me: hopefully, this year :) Palitada na lang ang painting job, its done! :)
... I know, i know... I'm the one who's hinting in this conversation. Could this be a good thing? Am I now ready to trust in this "kind of" dreams again?... Maybe its different now.
i know it is. Its different now.
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