They say that a single touch can make you hold on to something; can leave you with a certain affection, especially by those that were given by people that we love.
In a way, i am guilty by this. I am very much in to the things that were given to me. My Freddie Box is the number one proof of this. I used to keep, every little things that he gave to me; even receipts, tickets and brochures that reminds me of an event, or a special occasion.
Its been more than five years… more than 5 boxes already… and i am proud of what i have accomplished today. I threw most of those stuff… thermal receipts that are unreadable, torn tickets and old boxes of chocolates… From 5 boxes… down to 2 :) Though, i still manage to save vintage ones like our Euro star Tickets from one of our first date in 2005, the first Sureseat print out e-Ticket from one of the first movies we have watched together (Harry Potter 4) and a bottle of Victoria secret lotion, Love Spell… one of his first gift to me when he started working. :p
Sometimes, i wonder, how long should we really have to hold on to something? be it a person… memoir… or an event? can our hearts really store all those beautiful moments that we dont need these clutter to help us remember? I always put an attachment to things. whenever i hold something with my bare hands, the gush always comes back… it never fails to remind me of the emotion that i had when i gained that souvenir. For instance, the moment i take a hold on that old “Manila Pen brochure” that i kept, i can still remember the rare happines that i had when we celebrated our first anniversary, with a fine dining set up. how scared, blushed and excited i was…
From my habits, i think its gonna be difficult. It’s gonna be hard to just shove all this little trinkets of special memories.
The challenge, from now on… is just to carefully choose which ones to keep. In my entirely cluttered bedroom… a single BUS ticket might not be worth keeping :p
I am adapting this post from my Tumblr blog. Hahahaha, I miss Freddie so much. He left for Ireland in a deployment assignment on May 8, 2011. It's been more than a month, i miss him sooo bad. ang hirap without his touch... hiiikk
I'm getting so vulnerable again :(
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