instead of butterflies in the stomach.. its butterflies in the intestine!!! hahahaha!! i cant help it! it makes me feel like im gonna poop all night!!
well.. i have finished the payment proposal today .. quite a bit early. i am happy somehow but.. whenever i thought of going with Freddie tomorrow.. my stomach aches. last night i was crying... well ayokong nag sesenti kapag ang reason lang is when i feel some one does not like me, or not trully accepting who i am. but im kinda happy though. cause now i realize.. yes maybe i am not sexy. but certainly... i am way too beautiful to be depressed. life is too short to spend it in non-stop crying and sobbing!!! (Huh?)..
i am feeling rather nervous, though. i committed so much mistakes (minor or major? well, doesnt matter cause the LC dont give a sh*t!). i hated it cause this may cause my new team leader Ronald, to brand me as the clumsy queen in the group! heheheh!
anyway..the only thing that excites me is that, i will be able to roam and go outside the busy city of manila. i will be able to go out and smell fresh air!! think about that!! that would be the real catch in this trip. i will be go to the finest place where i can trully enjoy the beautiful sight of peace!!!!! HOORAY!!
siguro, in order for me to appreciate life more and the beauty of what i see, i will take pictures.. di ba nga sabi dun sa nabasa ko.. try to look for something new to like. the thought make sense, doesnt it? i feel that, this is what i should do so that i wont get tired easily... yung the act of "smelling the flowers along the way".. oh di ba? parang as i have mentioned before, life is too short to waste on unnecessary aching and dreading. naiinis ako kasi masyado akong nagpapadala sa mga sasabihin ng ibang tao.. eh gosh... tao lang yan.. though i must admit that i dont actually rely on them too much.. but...the thing is. i cant ignore what they say naman entirely..
i am so dead!!!!
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