leaving it to His pierced and loving hands...

i'll take an effort to share to you the very important lessons that ive learned today. perhaps, ill always struggle to put these in my life, but really...alam kong may reason why God made me absorb these lessons deeper than before... as in, masaya ko dahil sa dami ng tanong ko sa buhay ko ngayon...binigyan nya ako ng mga MALALAKAS na sagot...

so here it goes... as a part of my daily routine of nourishing my soul...im accustomed on reading any devotional book that i can lay my hands on. usually, i pick "Our Daily Bread"... then kanina... im so frustrated since i feel i have been unuseful for the past few weeks. i graduated already yet, i still ask money from my mom, and i still dont help my sister pay the bills. im a bum, and i feel so guilty.

kesa ilabas ko ang inis ko at anxiety sa ibang bagay by pagdadabog or pagsisira...i just grab my Our Daily Bread and just read...as i vividly absorb God's Word...and as i pour out all my anxieties and guilt to Him...this is what he answered me...

"Unlike David, we often want to silence our critics, insist on fairness and defend ourselves. But as we grow in our awareness of God's protective love, we become less concerned with what others may say about us and more willing to entrust ourselves to our Father.

its good to look beyond those who oppose us and look to the One who loves us with infinite love. it is good to be able to believe that whatever God permits is for our ultimate good - good though we're exposed to curses of Shimei (Samuel 16:5-14); good, though our hearts break and we shed tears.

You are in God's hands, no matter what others are saying about you. He has seen your distress, and in time, He'll repay you for all the curses you have received. so trust him and abide by His love.

What's done in the silent place with God is what matters. it's in the quiet hours of fellowship with God that we are shaped and molded into men and women that He can use - people that He can be well pleased.

you might be thinking that, you may be in the place where you can't be useful. you may feel limited and frustrated by the cramping restrictions of age, an illness, a difficult child, an uncooperative spouse. but your place, whatever it is, is a place to grow. spend time in God's word and in prayer. Grow and bloom where you are, and your Father will be pleased to you."

it was a wake up call for me. i realized, masyado ata akong nagmamadali. that im failing to appreciate God's timing for my life... binigyan nya ko ng mahaba-habang bakasyon kaya...i should be thankful. God is working in my life right now...i can feel that. his presence is always with me. what i should pray for more is the gift that i might look for more brightful evidences of how He is trully carving my future...